Well. There really is no news. My plan for being on my agency like
Flies On You Know What didn't really work out too good. It doesn't matter how much
I'm on them if they just avoid ...
After writing that post last Tuesday, I called my agency and I was going to really let her have it. I said my peace, but then ended up crying my head off at the end of the conversation. I partly blame my pending sickness (double ear ache/infection that had me down for about 3 days) for that part. She ensured me that she understood the urgency, and that she would be working on "Ecuador" stuff tomorrow (last Wednesday) and that she should have updated pictures and video of E for us. I told her that I had to work all day, but that I would be looking forward to her email with all the details, and we would be ecstatic to receive updated pictures. Most importantly, we are still needing that Formal Assignment letter from the committee in order to apply for our I-800 and MOVE FORWARD! Wednesday came and went ... nothing. I got incredibly sick Wednesday so I didn't bother to try and connect. But then Thursday came and went ... and nothing. Thursday night I emailed her and reminded her what she told me about "working on Ecuador" Wednesday and that I wanted answers. Late Friday night, I finally got an email with a few more documents, not necessarily important documents and some were duplicates, and absolutely
no updates. Extremely frustrating. E is a waiting child, so I'm just baffled as to why it is taking so incredibly long to get things in order. Ryan has done a good job of reminding me that we have only been in process from Ecuador for a few months -- but we have been doing this dance for far too long. We haven't gotten any updates about our daughter since we started this process. The initial paperwork we received was written when she was 2 1/2 years old. We know nothing more beyond those documents from October 2011. At first I just accepted it, because we would be traveling so soon to go and get her. I didn't want any time wasted on updated pictures or videos because we would be there soon enough and I could get my own pictures and videos. I just wanted them to get the paperwork in order so we could GO!
Of course, my plans have once again been thrown off course. As I talked about in
Expectations,
my timeline for all of this obviously doesn't matter. But now it's come to a point, where things will start to get difficult. I put off school this semester and took an Independent Study. My I.S. is to study Latino culture while in Ecuador, and write a research paper. It is to also include 6 weeks of journaling during my stay in country. Not quite sure what I'm going to do, but obviously that isn't going to work. Of course there are other parts to the class, so I'll be diligently finishing that up and begging my professor to try and find something that can work for the requirements. Since I'm only taking 3 credits, and I've dropped below half-time status, my student loan deferral is up next month and I'll be required to start making payments. Since Ryan graduated in May, his payment deferral is also up -- and so we'll be required to start making payments of nearly $600/month starting mid-December. We don't exactly have that lying around, and since we're working we don't exactly qualify for any sort of hardship. I will, of course, do my best to try and convince them that we are indeed in financial hardship!
Since we didn't travel this semester, we will be likely traveling next semester (God willing!)... which means that I won't be able to enroll for classes, further delaying my payment deferment. Had I known, I would've stayed enrolled for all of my classes for Fall Semester. If only I knew.
We're coming up on the end of another year, and Ryan will have to forfeit weeks of vacation, again. I've lost count on how many he's lost over the years. He always saves them so that we can use them when it's time to travel for the adoption. His weeks don't roll over, so if he doesn't use them, he loses them. This year we saved again because, of course, we knew we'd be there and back before the end of the year. If only we knew.
The adoption tax credit is set to expire December 31st, so we will likely miss out on that too if it doesn't get renewed. Check out the
website, and see how you can help advocate to keep the credit. We could really use all the help we can get!!
Worst of all ... E's birthday is in 34 days. We won't be there. Birthdays have been incredibly hard over the years. It kills me that she will turn 4 years old. In that orphanage. Without a family.
I need help maintaining a positive frame of mind. Please help me.